On my tumblr, I have been doing a 30 day grief survey. So far it seems to be helping a bit. It's making me dive a little more deeply into the things that I try to block from my mind. I figure when I finish it there, I will transfer it onto this site and elaborate quite a bit more.

Friday we leave for Nebraska. I really hope this trial run goes as smoothly as possible. There is nothing I wouldn't give to be able to move away and start over. I know if it is what is meant for our family, God will let us know. And I know you'll have something to do with that as well. I always feel like you are protecting us. Today just seems unbearable.

Missing you son.
-Mom